Blink! Blink! Another Year gone by. I am poorer and officially I stay at home to cook, to clean, to educate, to look after Yvette for another year and now looking after my FIL.
It’s no fun to stay at home. Plenty of housework to do and plenty of tantrum. Of course I believe no fun to work too. Nothing is fun… life is never easy…It’s never been a bed of roses!
Stay positive! (Stella and Lazymummy always say this to me.)
During the past one year, I did look for job. I applied for a System Accountant job which I used to do. Less of a day in and day out routine but I didn’t get the job I applied for. (If I would to apply for Accountant job, it will be definitely easier.) But well, Accountant has extremely long working hours. It is not like (most) other professional where you can go home and do your work. We have to stay in the office during budgetting, system implementation, and some important assignments. And staying in office is not like up to 9 pm. My longest record on staying in office was 24 hours and that last me for a few days. (Back home, wash clean, eat, sleep, then back to office for another 24 hours.) (I can tahan at the prime of your life.. I doubt I can do it now seriously.)
I don’t believe that if you are a working mum, your kids will be at a disadvantage or turn out to be delinquents! Likewise, if you’re a SAHM, it doesn’t guarantee that your kids will become better adults.
Yvette is going to attend school on her own in less than a month, and soon I will have some time of my own. Not that I am going to devote my time to career now and nope, career is the last thing on my mind. I am thinking should I doing part-time in any field to earn a little extra and not earning for a living and craving for career. Yvette is still my top priority, and she will always be.
Besides being staying at home for 2 years, Breastfeeding is another task that I take on after being a mum.
Physical bonding all began from the first feeding. The moment she latched on I felt this huge rush of emotions going through my body. This is why breastfeeding is so important, it establishes bonding between mother and child. According to a few of my friends, the longer a child is breastfed, the closer they are to their mother in the long run.
I did trying to wean her, but I really fail badly. After chatting with Sam and get confirmation from gynae, I think I should wait patiently for her to wean off by herself. Actually there are some good signs coming from her. Sometimes when I ask her whether she wants it, but she say no. And she doesn’t need to be latched on at night before she sleeps. SO now, I don’t know when weaning is going to happen but I know breast milk is good for her health and also for our relationship. Till this day I still feel the rush of emotions when I’m nursing her. It is truly a beautiful moment.
And I am lucky, my menses came back after 6 months of breastfeeding which mean, I can easily try for baby anytime. However, taking care of Yvette really take up a lot of our energy and I think we really didn’t try hard enough.
Will I need to wait for another 5 years for another baby?
God, please don’t let this happen!