Fate is not by chance but by the choices you make everyday

Fate is not by chance but by the choices you make everyday, I can’t help but to agree with this statement.  

Everyday we have to make choices, big or small.  

Several months ago, I was informed I am going to transfer from town office to another office located in East office with effect of Jan 08. The company needs me to travel to the East office and stay in the town office, 2 weeks per month to help out the transition period before the new staff come on board on Jan 08. By living a MRT stop away from the town office, this decision came to me by surprise and in fact, cruel. I was actually tested positive for pregnant but I have spotting, meaning, there is a possibility I might miscarriage. Despite telling my boss the situation, he INSISTED I have to go there. Well, some people might advise me, quit, this is your first pregnancy and you have long waited for. Even my family members also asked me to quit.  

As this happened on Oct, which is not far from my AWS. I have, to stay on to get my AWS, before I call it a quit. (I didn’t want to dip into my saving. I want and have given all the money for my mum, because I know I will not be working after my baby due. I am prepared to be the care-giver of my baby.)  

So, I make a choice to stay on.  

Moving to the new environment, where I need to take 4 hrs to and fro to my work place, I am upset. (I always want to cry when I think of this) This took my pregnancy into a higher risk. Maybe due to this situation, I don’t have any morning sickness, which is a blessing. But this transfer made me very tired, low in self-esteem. I meet new people. Mostly all ang-mo and aunties. I noticed there is one nice looking gal working in the office too. But she doesn’t belong to my company, she work for our vendor.  

Chemistry between both of us didn’t light up instantly. Since I have to be there for 2 weeks from Oct to Dec, I got to start to make friend there. I start talking to the aunties and this ger, slowly our friendship does develop and she is the first person in that office, I have disclosed my pregnancy.   

I make a choice to level our friendship.  

I shared with her with my personal matters, how I coped with my pregnancy. She shared with me, her interesting life. And from there on, we knew, each other do blog but she never disclosed her identity to me.   

On 8th Jan, where I am doing my closing in the town office, I start to browse my blog and those links I have placed on my blog. I am caught by surprise, there is actually a blogger, who also having the same birthday with this ger I know in real life. Then I read further, hmmm, I think they are the same person.  

So I made a choice to give her a call.   

SF: Halo, Happy birthday, I know who are u in blog sphere liao!  

HB: hur hur, who?  

SF: HB! HB! HB!  

HB: Haha haha   

We continued to chat for awhile on I have confirmed her identity. Then we hanged up cos she is having her birthday party.  

Yes, yes, yesh, she is known as The Horny Bitch in this blog sphere. Hmmm, I didn’t expected lor. I finally met HB in real life… hahaha…. (I think I ever shared with Spinnee, there is someone I want to meet in blog sphere in real life, but I doubt she would want to meet me. Me and HB seem like two ppl in differ world)  

When I came to read about her, I think 2 years back, I find she is someone REAL. Real as in, she only write what had happened in her real life. All entries written on her blog is her real life experiences. (This is truth. If not how I manage to link that is THB after reading her posts.)  

Everyone is an individual. What I can see thru this virtual world on HB does represent the rest in this blog sphere. And by choosing such a controversial title; The Horny Bitch for herself, hmmm….no doubt it has given her enough fame & flame.  

Who is HB to me?  

She is definitely not a bitch, not a bimbo and not horny.  

She is someone who loves to party but doesn’t mean she is going to be picked up.  

She is someone who dares to love, want to love but not rush into love. 

She is someone who can be bo liao, but she is certainly funny.  

She is someone who dares to seek for justice but she knows her limit. 

She is someone that loves herself, loves her friends and loves her family. So she is a The Human Being now.

Lastly, even is God to determine who walks into your life. It is up to u to make a choice; who you let walk away, who to stay & who refuse to let go…..